Same idea here. Thank you for this article. Some women like this, and a number of straight men do this. If you give it time, not hours or a few days, over a long period of time you will get better, the longer you go the longer you will see yourself coming back to your old self. It turned me on but after it felt so wrong.
Now tell me OP, how do i classify as secretly gay?
If you don't like to believe that watching two guys have sex turns you on even though it does, you are going to continue to rationalize until you can find a reason you can live with. Now you might say: That - is exactly what transsexual women face when we date men. We discussed a variety of topics.
Something was trying to fuck with my head, by attacking the identifications I most valued.